I think I have settled on what I will do for his birthday cake, too! If we had never gone dye-free, I probably would be planning some cool Captain America's shield cupcakes. (I had a picture here but it wasn't mine and I just read a scary article and don't want to make any trouble, so I'll let you do your own googling.) Of course, the night before I'd be cursing myself for choosing something so complicated, and they would never actually turn out this cute, but it's no fun without a challenge, right?
As I sit here planning his party, I feel overwhelmed with blessings. We aren't rich, but we can afford special treats for birthdays without a second thought. We have friends who love us and will join us to celebrate, even on short notice. (Sorry guys, it's next Sunday!) and we have a home to welcome them in to. We have beautiful, healthy children. And since we have found a way to help M deal with his self-control and emotions, we won't spend the entire party apologizing for him and sending him to time out. We are truly blessed.
The funniest part, though, is that normally my mind would still be fixed on those Captain America cupcakes. Even with a long list of things to be grateful for, I would allow myself to get caught up on the one thing we couldn't have!
My book group is reading Linda Dillow's "Calm My Anxious Heart" this month.
Books like this help me see the big picture. I am a person that is easily distracted by details, and I have a bad habit of giving negative things more than their fair share of my attention. This book has challenged me to stop complaining and choose a perspective of gratefulness. As I imagine lighting the candles on M's spidey cake and singing happy birthday to my sweet four-year-old, I feel truly content.